I Will Always Rise

 

Awareness of expectation hangs in my mind

No one can see

“She just wants what’s best for herself and what will make her happy.”

Meanwhile, my throat is tightening from trying to do what is needed

But I can’t shake their eyes off my back

Always look busy

Try to make it look like you’re doing something important

Well, what they think doing something important looks like

Multitasking just to avoid scoldings

Do what they think is important

And try your best to get what you need to do done

At the same time, but always remember

“You’re supposed to want to talk to us the most.”

Then why does my heart collapse in on itself whenever I see them

Why does my smile flee to the farthest corner of my mind

I want to be thought of well

So I do what they think is best

But I want to pursue my dreams

So I work as hard as my body will allow when they aren't watching

Don’t bother them with anything

You can do it
You can understand

You can learn

You can pull yourself back up

Yes, but what if I don’t want to?

What if I don’t want to pull myself back up?

But then I think of my promise

My heart grabs at any hope

And I stand once more

Just wait till I fall again

I will rise

I will always rise

Do not underestimate me

I will work until I bleed downpours

I will learn till my mind bursts

So, let the screams tear from my throat

Let the tears flow like oceans

Let the blood fall like rain

I am not weak like them

I will fight
Until I rise above 

And let out a battle cry like a titan

And all who doubted me

All who built themselves up by pushing me down

They will all fall like dead trees in a gust of wind

Because I will always rise